Praise God 4 His Grace! :D

HALLELUJAH!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!! I knew how 2 do ALL e questions for my exams today! A confirm 65+/75. E best part is that I studied 6 of 11 chapters & out of e 8 questions, 7 came from those 6 chapters!!! Muahahahaaa.. & I could do all of it! Praise God & I'll say again'PRAISE e LORD for HIS GOODNESS!' When u serve HIM & do ur best, HE always rewards. :)

Rested abit then went down 2 Hall 8 2 help set up d stage. Thought it'll last 2hrs e most, but alas! we were there 4-11pm. :p Really enjoy being in God's house, seeing e preparations for Emerge! & being involved in it. Saw our new creation: e Zorro's ( coz it's a single timbale by itself). Saw Sun & Dayan & Pst Kong. He looks sooo skinny up close. Muz pray 4 his health. He really has a BIG heart that's why he always wants 2 do his best & expects us likewise, if not we r only short changing ourselves from reaching our potential, e ppl around us who need 2 be touched & God coz we do not glorify Him! So saying, we fall short of HIS Glory. Therefore my new resoultion will be 'to give my best! & nothing less!'.

There's soooo much 2 do in SF. It's not only about drumming, but serving e mucis ministry as well by setting up e stage. Saw e ppl who sacrificed their time & energy 2 get e 8 Zorros up & running. They did so tiredlessly w/o complaining. Could see they were ppl of focus on a mission! Was inspired by ALL who came down today! SF function well as a team, & today I saw our teamwork in action. Really revitalize & re-energized me.

I wanna go 4 Emerge!! Better cheong my studies e next 2 dayz so I can attend thurs & fri nite. Made a mistake regarding my examz. It's this friday, tuesday, monday & wednesday. HaHa.. Blur liao.

Feeling sooo tired from e dayz events, but I'm HAPPY! It's a real fulfilling day! I LOVE U JESUS! :D

Examz..

Last leg.. Plz pray 4 me.. Exams tomorrow ( management science method), friday (managerial econs), tuesday (corporate finance), 12th ( management maths), 14th ( financial intermediaton).
Need God's grace, & lots of prayer. Thanks.

Can't go 4 Emerge! Needa be focused :(
Everything in it's time & season. Joseph had 2 wait years in slavery & prison b4 he got 2 where God promised him 2 be. He never once complained, he never once doubted. Juz believe! I BELIEVE!!! :'D

S T R E T C H E D ! ! !

Tired. Juz got home. Long long day today. Didn't wanna update blog, but it's been a few dayz since I last updated. Muz be responsible 2 my faithful readers. HaHa.. :p

Rolled myself out of bed this morning @ 9:30. Thanks Vincent 4 e morning call, w/o which i would have still been sleeping till noon. HaHa.. CG started @ 10:30, ended 12:30. Rushed Jo back 2 expo & picked Sisca & gang up on e way 2 CG. Kaixin's CG started @ 2 ended 3:30. Was late reaching Kranji camp 4 our combined NDP rehearsal. So paiseh! 30 of us went down, there were like 300 over other ppl there, but e organiser intro us over e PA system @ e stadium. All 300+ eyes looking @ us waving. HaHa.. we r really going places. Ppl everywhere know about us. :p Silly Yiling was down w fever yet she came down. Had 2 send her home aft e prac which ended @ 7pm then rushed down 2 PA 2 meet e 60 over others from SF invovled in NDP. Ended @ 10pm, but somehow reached home @ midnight. I'm poofed. Feeling so stretched this week, & e stretching will juz intensify in time 2 come.

Good word, having an intimate relationship w God. Many times this year, God has been speaking 2 me, but somehow it's never clear until service or CG day when God shows me a clearer pic. It's like on normal dayz, he gives a parable & on sat & sun, He explains it. In a way, He keeps me in suspense & more eager 2 wait upon Him. As a result I'm experiencing & loving Him more in my life. U can go 2 church, attend CG & serve, but still not know or experience God still! & I've talked 2 many ppl like that. Relationship building takes time, energy & effort. Even when u r tired, it is a choice we muz make 2 relate. Shutting up doesn't help anyway. Many times in e bible God doesn't say 2 give up or lose ur dream. Instead, He gives rest, energizes & recomissions again. Praise God 4 that.

Been a very long week for me. In e midst of my examz now & I'm feeling e stretch. Wanted 2 take a break from ministry, but then again, it is not possible. HaHa.. Almost everyday I was awaken by e ringing of my phone. Somehow there r a lot of things that needs 2 be done. There r sooooo many ppl, but only a handful of committed ppl. So sad. But I thank God, although I feel overly stretched, He's been rewarding me 4 my faithfulness. He's increasing my capacity & bringing me 2 places I never thought possible. Indeed God does not reward us based on our talents, but on our faithfullness! Praise God 4 that, coz He uses me, a man of little talent & shows me how important I am 2 Him & His plans.

Many times God plants great potential in us, but many times we say 'no God, it is too hard, I can't do it!' when we hit a little obstacle. Ppl may fail us, even those we think we can depend on, but God never fails us. BUT he also won't spoil us! Like a child learning how 2 swim, God will guide us, he'll support us, but there'll come a time when He'll let go of us! & many times we struggle & feel so afraid, but thank God He will not let us drown. He'll alsways pick us up, comfort us, & encourage us 2 try again till we get it right. That is why some ppl start a cycle & stay in e cycle a LONG LONG time. They never ever learn 2 overcome their little problem. So next time u r faced w a difficult task, or u feel like giving up, remember this. God never ever gave up on us though He knew of our stuborn nature & rebellion. ;)

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Praise GOD I managed 2 clear 2 chapters today w much understanding. Told myself I'd not get distracted today, but somehow I kept thinking of her.

She's been sick e past few days still. Msged her a lot of times today, but she didn't once reply. Makes me worry.. Is she ok? Is she eating properly? Did anything happen 2 her today? But all I get in reply is an uneasy silence.. *Haiz* I can only lean on GOD & trust that HE will come through 4 her.

Surrender wat u have 2 GOD,
what u prize & treasure most.
& GOD will do a work,
moulding & shaping,
polishing & refining,
& it will shine more beautiful & radiant than before.
GOD into UR hands I commit & trust.

Went 2 e food fair @ epxo 4 dinner. What a crowd! Wanted 2 take more pics, but ppl r so senstive about it. My dinner: thai pineapple rice, huge otah, my favourite pecking duck! *yummy* the guys preparing my duck. Cost me $12 altogether! Talk about expensive. :p

Quizzies

Yawn.. Can't believe I woke up @ 10am. It's too early.. Been sleeping late, yet I automatically wake up & can't get back 2 my wonderful dreamland. :(

Couldn't help doing some quiz I found in a friends page.

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calm You are often held up by others as the ideal But too much of you, and they'll get burned You are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connecting

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your Ideal Pet is a Little Dog

You're both high strung, hyper, and cute.You're one of the few people who can get away with carrying your little dog in a little bag.

What's" Your Ideal Pet?

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them.You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist. Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry.If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

@_@

Had a fruitful 5hr study today @ e expo w Davin. Funny guy. Enjoy talking 2 him, but somehow he always likes 2 pair ppl up. 'As a man thinks in his heart, so is he'. hahaha..

Talked w Zhu.. Although it was only 4 10min, it brought me 2 cloud 9. More motivated 2 study. HaHa.. Plz pray 4 her though.. She didn't go 2 school today. Had gestric & went 2 see e doctor. On medication now & have 2 go 4 a check up @ NUH next month. So worried 4 her coz she always skips her meals. *Haiz*

ZZzz..

Man am I sleepy.. Thank GOD 4 His supernatural strength. W/o it, I wouldn't have been able 2 make it through e day.

Woke up @ 8am by Jo's msg, "Where r u? I'm almost reaching." *Ding*Ding*Ding* alarm bells started ringing in my head. Set my alarm clock @ 7:30, but juz refused 2 get out of bed. Jo never msg b4, so I juz thank GOD she did. lol

"Anything that can go wrong will go wrong!" This theory was proven during CG:
1stly- bcoz of my schedule, I wasn't able 2 try out e songs 4 CG until today, & we were doing e new song 'Let's Get Loud!'
2ndly- Vincent arrived late. He helped me 2 print e chords (no printer), 8:45 i think. When he reached, he realised that he didn't bring e chords!
3rdly- when we tried 2 log onto e internet 2 get e chords, there was something wrong w e connection. Took about 10min b4 we could log in
4thly- while waiting, I tried e worship w Jo ( some old songs which i love). Somehow no flow.
5thly- when e praise was ready, we couldn't get e right tempo. We were rushing e song.
6thly- when I went out 2 settle down, e CG was praying, couldn't find my stuff, more imporatantly my spectrum, w/o which I couldn't play e guitar.
LoL soooo much misfortune.

During praise felt my arms giving way bcoz e previous day's events. Was a little disheartened. During worship, I couldn't feel GOD presence @ all. Saw that Jo was also distracted.. But GOD is good, he reminded me that worship is a matter of attitude, our surroundings shouldn't affect us. Like when Paul was stoned, ship wrecked & thrown into prison, even though he was doing GOD's work, he didn't blame GOD, instead he worshipped Him. Closed my eyes & worship, & slowly, I felt His presence come. Sometimes we have 2 push away our surroundings & focus in on e 1 we r worshipping, not on e job we r doing. When I opened my eys, could that Jo had cried, but was recovering from it. There's 1 thing which GOD had been speaking 2 me but till now I'm still learning 2 do: Leaders move even when no 1 else is willing 2. :p

Rushed 4 Service after that. Lydia sat w us as she came 4 make up. Had a good talk w her. Muz keep praying 4 her, surface always looks good but when u go deep, u see more. Sermon was FANTASTIC! Talked about Daniel. How Daniel was in e world, excelling in his field, looked & was like e world, but he was 1 of 3 most rightous men in e bible. Through him, e King of Babylon, e most corrupted nation in e world, had 2 acknowledge that e GOD of Daniel is god of all! Talking about making an impact in e marketplace! Even Jesus was so normal, it took a kiss 2 identify him 2 e Romans. So we r in e world, but not products of e world. We belong 2 GOD. Neither legalistic nor wreakless. We r balanced w e Holy Spirit 2 guide us. I pray that some1 will see that. Many times when I tell her things or ask her 2 do something, she seems constrained, like wat we should or should not comment or do. Well like e bible says, show love 2 those weaker in faith. But I still love her 4 her innocence. It's juz that it has yet 2 be tested true. :p

Was supposed 2 go out w her & S & J, but she had another appointment. Was so sad. When I tried 2 talk 2 her also, she seemed 2 draw away, as if she's afraid. Hmmm... GOD in ur time, U will do a work in her life as u have done in mine. I believe in U, take her up a few levels plz! In ur hands I commit.

Finally. So early. Think I can sleep now. HaHa.. Sleep deprevation. Gotta chiong my studies tomorrow.

things I got 4 her birthday. expensive? yes! but when u love some1, u'll give e person e best!
took 2 months 2 do e foldings. tedious, but i also believe in being creative & putting in ur own effort ;)

I'm a Sleepy Lobster

OH MY GOSH!! I'M FINALLY RED LIKE A LOBSTER! lol had a good blast of sun during NDP training. Think I look better like that. HaHa..

What a tiring day. Had only 4hrs of sleep. Reached expo Max Pavilion @ 7:50. Late! stay e closest, yet I'm e latest. Made a lot of mistakes during prac. Bro Boon had 2 stop us all bcoz I 'haven't wake up yet'. :p Played 4 e Singapore Youth Leaders Conference, where all e student leaders of schools gather. They were very dull @ 1st, maybe bcoz they had 2 be there so aerly in e morning. HaHa.. But we soon woke them up. They were soon cheering & screaming their heads off every time we paused, after our performance, they were wide awake. HaHa.. Listened 2 our playing in Alvin's van after that. Sounded VERY GOOD! We can make an album w that. lol
Had lunch @ expo food court after that. E food stall attendents were horrified when we told them that we were not having service today.lol They overcooked. All of us were 3/4 asleep, but had 2 rush down 4 NDP prac @ 1pm. When we reachde PA, we all juz sprawled on e floor & stayed there 4 10 min. Almost fell asleep. :p

A lot of changes in e NDP sequences, but most of us who perform more have gotten used 2 it. Am worried 4 those who don't come down regularly 4 prac though. "The strength of our group is as strong as our weakest link." Although I'm sad 2 see so few ppl during trainings, I keep telling myself, I gotta have faith in them. But it is so hard when u have a vision & goal, & u try ur very best 2 do ur best, & u turn around 2 see e rest of e ppl so slack. Haizz.. GOD, plz give me understanding & how u lead better.

Taking e snare group now. Hurray!!! Never thought it was possible, coz my level of skill is not quite there yet. But GOD is indeed good. He rewards a man 4 his faithfulness even though it may not be his lot in e 1st place. Juz like e parable of e talents where 1 person got 5, another 3 & e last 1. The servant who got 1 didn't utilize his talent ( or should I say 'slackde'), so it was taken away from him. E 1 w 10 talents however, found another talent dropping into his lap although it was not his lot. Moral of e story.. Work hard, do ur best, & GOD will do e rest.

Brought some of e guys running then 2 e gym. Feeling stronger & fitter now. HaHa.. Feeling good. :)

Time 2 ZZzzz.. 12hr SF really takes a toll. But hey! If u love wat u r doing, have a right attitude, u can overcome anything. ;) CG starts @ 9am tomorrow. :p *pengzz*

Happy 21st Birthday!!!

So happy today!!! Celebrated her 21st birthday! Thank God all turned out well. She was totally shocked! HaHa.. Speechless 4 words. Will elaborate more tomorrow.

Gotta burn midnite oil. Exam @ 10am. Worried sick. At least I have 1 worry down. As long as she's happy. :) Time 2 FOCUS!

*Yawn*

Hallelujah!

Had a fruitful day studying. Alvin joined me in e evening. Spent time bonding w each other. lol

My tuition kid's mom called. She was so excited.. Raymond scored 89% for his Maths mid year! Praise God!! I remember when I took him for tuition last year, he had sooo many things he didn't understand. In a way, he reminded me of when I was a boy. Playful, short atention span, gave a hard time 2 my tuition teacherS. lol Wanted 2 make an impact in his life, so I took on e job. I was very disppointed when he failed in his final exams last year & wanted 2 give up as I had put in sooo much effort. His parents didn't allow him 2 come 2 church, & I didn't know where 2 hide my face as I was his charge. :( But thank GOD 4 His mercies! He renewed my vision! Now he's doing exceptionally well in school, he's coming 2 church, & his mom came 4 service 4 e 1st time! HALLELUJAH! GOD indeed rewards those who r faithful! :D

GOD never takes away a vision which He implants in us, like in Mtt 25 when Jesus taught on e parable of e faithful servant, GOD took away e talent of e unfaithful servant! Y coz GOD gave him a vision, a duty, but he did not follow through w it, & Y wasn't he able 2 follow through?? It says in verse 24-25 that he knew e master was a hard when, & therefore he was afraid. Now what could he b afraid? Failure! He was afraid that he would lose that 1 talent instead of multiplying it. So he hide his talent! As a result, GOD called him unfaithful & took away his lot!

What about e 1st servant? What caused him 2 deserve 5 talents & what allowed him 2 earn 5 more?!?! How does GOD measure a person's faithfullness??? I can imagine e life of e 1st servant, some1 hardworking & talented, but it's not only that which gave him e right 2 5 talents & MORE. It was his FAITHFULLNESS!!! What does it mean 2 be faithful? Faithfullness means not giving up even when u fail e first time, faithfullness means keep trying, trying, trying till u get e right formular. Many times ppl give up on their vision bcoz of 1 thing. FAILURE! They r afraid of losing e relationship, losing their money, losing wat ppl think of them. As a result, they fall short of success. When GOD gives a vision, HE never ever once said in e bible: "If it doesn't work out, change e vision." FAR BE FROM IT! Instead GOD gives e person rest, then HE rekindles e vision within him! So if a method doesn't work, CHANGE E METHOD! Like Moses when e ppl rebelled against him, like Joseph when his world seemed 2 be falling apart, like David when he was being chased by his enemies. They were sad, but GOD always rekindled their vision. GREAT MEN of GOD r GREAT MEN OF FOCUS! I'm so sad when I see so many, including myself, lose e fire & vision GOD has put into our hearts. Maybe that's Y I'm so stuborn & harsh regarding some things now: I don't wanna be steered away from my vision again. lol So I'm sorry if I offend some ppl. :p

CHAMPIONS R NOT PPL WHO NEVER FAIL,
THEY R PPL WHO NEVER GIVE UP
U CAN NEVER LOSE WHAT U NEVER HAD,
U CAN NEVER HAVE ANYTHING U R NOT WILLING TO FIGHT FOR
GREAT MEN OF GOD R ALSO GREAT MEN OF FOCUS
A MAN WITHOUT A VISION PERISHES
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HIM WHO IS WILLING TO WORK HARD

Tired!

Wat a long day. *phew* Set my alarm clock @ 11am, but was woken up by lots of msg @ 10am. Had 5hrs sleep. HaHa..

Met Liz for lunch. She so cheeky. Reminds me of e times we had when we were little & still depending on our parents 2 bring us around. We would tease each other & I'd pull her hair. Made her cry a few times too. HaHa. But now, WoW, young woman already.. Independent & witty.. Can tease me back now. :p Went 2 e food court @ Suntec. As usual, she dumped me w all her greens. *tsktsk* bad girl. I'll tell ur mom next time I see her. :p Had Ben & Jerry's after that. Full chocolate overload. lol juz e way I like it. Yummy :p. So sinful. She was supposed 2 go home after that, but she dared me 2 walk all e way 2 Takashimaya. Poor girl was sweating e way there, but hey! We had a good cardio workout. ;)

Was so sleepy after that I could hardly focus on studying. Dozed off a few times. :p Met Bro Boon @ Fort Canning. ToTo performing there. Got e van from him & rushed down 2 PA. Tried e rapanick patr. Cool! I love e sound of it. Tried e firecracker too. :) Wasn't really satisfied w today's prac. There was something missing apart from e tightness, e X factor that made us unique. Haizz..

Sent e van back 2 Bro Boon @ Fort Canning @ 10:30. Was flat out. Forgot 2 lock e van. Kana again. lol :p Praise God my dad called! Offered 2 pick me up! Talk about giving sacrificially. God always provide. He always intervenes right on time when we need Him, when we do our best w/o complaining. lol Thank U Jesus. :)

3 Dayz N Some More!!

Hallelujah!! Attended all 3 dayz of Pst Phil's meeeting. Was really pleased by e word. There r 3 pastors, apart from Pst Kong, I really respect & will attend all their meetings if I could.
1) Dr Bernard- teacher of e word
2) Dr Ulf- teacher, visionary, apostle
3) Pst Ulf- prophet, inspirer, example setter

Was really blessed e last 3 dayz. Although had 2 queue n have NDP training, though many a times I was forcing myself 2 keep awake, e msg of God always revives e Spirit as we come hungry 2 connect w God. Really wanna thank God, coz 4 e last 3 dayz, I wantde 2 be as close front as possible, but by e time I got in, almost all e front was booked. But God always provides when a person earnessly seeks & find. Praise God on Friday, I got seats in front of choir. Sat we managed 2 push 4 e choir side agin when there was none left. Sun everbody couldn't wake up, so had 2 hold e seats myself. Was quite disappointed actually, I was ok when everybody was late, since most of them stay quite far, but when they realised e seats were a little scattered, they wanted 2 seat way behind!! My God! I was like, r u hungry 4 e word, or r u playing church. Instead of trying find ways 2 squeeze in front, they chose e convenient way. Somebody once comentde b4: "U can't force ur way!" but when a man has a vision & he knows wat he's doing, he can't help but go 4 excellence & result. Thank God they finally decided 2 squeeze down front. Got seats right in front of e pulpit. Hurrah!!! Mom came 4 service on Friday. Praise e Lord!!

Pst talked about coming 2 a new level of faith & prayer. Prayer releases God's power. Not our ideas or work. U can plan all u want, but if God is not there, u r only wasting ur time. Love e way he relates 2 God. Been talking 2 God in a more intermate way, like I do w a friend. There r times when I'd juz walk around e room, there times when I'd juz stare out e window. There was 1 nite I was worshipping & a word came: "when u worship me, e angels cannot help but worship as well." lol angels r all around us all e time, somehow that day as I worshipped, I imagined leading e angels in worshipping as well, as if I was e worship leader. lol Had a marvolous time. moral of e story: When e Holy Spirit leads, juz flow w Him, no matter how ridiculous it may sound like. lol Try it, u'd be surprised urself. ;)

Really tired. Had training Sat afternoon b4 service, Sun helped pack up e stage b4 going 4 prac. A lot of gigs coming up. Examz around e corner too. Feeling e stress.. Taking slow on e performances, but during training, more is required examz or no examz. :p So have 2 rise up & increase my capacity. Was really impressed by Zhu too. Although she hasn't really been coming 4 prac, she managed 2 get her part quite fast, onli she needs more confidence. I have faith in her. She's really bz too w her work, FYP & NDP training. Next week is her birthday yet she got no time 2 celebrate. Muz pray 4 her if u know who she is.

Muz be more encouraging instead of demanding more from a person.
"A leader knows e way, goes e way & shows e way." So instead of pushing, I muz be an example, so when ppl see how much burden I have yet I'm able 2 overcome, they too will be motivated & inspired. Then when I speak, it'll carry weight & ppl will listen.

I'm a Charged Up Prayer Warrior!

Was an awesome svc today. Reached @ 5pm. Thought of having dinner then queue, but apparently there was a queue since 12pm! WoW.. Talk about being hungry 4 e word.

Thank God! When I went in, many of the seats were already booked, but an empty space 6 rows from e front on e choir side caught my eye. Apparently there were ppl standing there, but they were not occupying e seat. It's as if God had reserved those seats 4 me. lol Mom came 4 svc today. Praise God! The last time she came was during our time @ holiwood theatre. She sat w my uncle way back. Where I was sitting was too loud 4 her. lol But praise God she came.Think it encouraged her too, coz my mom is a prayer warrior. She's so faithful, she prays 2-3 times a day. Once in e morning when she wakes up, sometimes in e afternoon, & b4 she sleeps. God always seems 2 listen 2 her prayers. ;)

Wat a great svc. When singing e praise song, I almost cried as e lyrics seaped into my soul. Pst Phil talked about rising up 2 a new level of prayer. Not of whimpy little weak prayers, but praying like how God will feel. Spent most of e time praying in e Spirit. He also touched slightly on having e vision that God put in us 2 be rekindled. On e whole, God was speaking 2 me. All that I've gone through & written in my blog those far, was a build up, a preparation 4 today. So when God speaks through Pst Phil, I can relate 2 it. Many times during e sermon, I felt God saying: "this msg is for u." I love U my God, & I'll love U more & more each day. :D

Feel so charged up & loved by God. Was so tempted 2 give up on my vision & start a new 1, but God never ever askes us 2 change our vision, but 2 overcome!
God sees a situation here on earth, He is burdened by it, but He instead of doing something about it, He puts e burden into OUR HEARTS! So when we see e same situation, we r also burdened by it & Y ask God: "God! How?" When WE set e problem b4 God, He charges us 2 pray & WE do something about it.
Many ppl get e above equation all jumbled up. So when things r not going our way, pray, pray, pray, believe, do & trust God. ;)

My God is an awesome God!!

Was feeling rather down juz now. Feel like I was falling sick & wasn't feeling so good emotionally. Juz When I wanted 2 sleep it off, God sent an angel! Yes He did! Her name is Elizebeth Gail Wilmot, my childhood friend. :) Thanks gal.. @ e moment when iwas almost asleep, she sent me an innocent pic msg. But through it, He showed me that He cares, He's thinking of me & that there r others out there who cares for me too. :) I realised I needed 2 enter God's presence. Sleeping won't make matters better, it juz stores up e trash. It's like e house is dusty & dirty, n instead of sweeping up e mess, u sweep it under e carpet! So instead of cleaning, u r juz accumulating, which makes e situation now even worse! lol

Had a great time in God's presence; I always do nowadays. Thank U Jesus. :)
Started by dedicating e time 2 God (It always help ;) ). The song "My God Is An Awesome God" came into my head. Simple song w only 4 lines:

MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD
HE REIGNS FROM HEAVEN ABOVE
WITH WISDOM, POWER & LOVE
MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD

It's an old yet powerful song. Sang it for ages.. Soon I found myself first jumping, then dancing, then twirling round my room!!! Was reminded of king David, how he took off his robes & danced b4 God. lol It's great 2 b able 2 express urself b4 e King of Kings sometimes. God desires a relationship w us, not a ritual routine of bowing down, clasping of hands kind of prayer.. We muz come out of our box. Be led by e Holy Spirit. ;)

God knows our needs & desires of our heart, but sometimes we ourselves don't! That's Y it is written, 2 pray & make our request known 2 God is for our benefit! Coz when we pray, we edify ourselves & it is through prayer we really come 2 know wat we really want! It's like thinking "I'm thirsty & need a drink", & saying out loud: "I'm thirsty! I need a drink!" It produces 2 different results. Sometimes by juz thinking it, e need for it is not that great, coz it's juz a thought. But when u say it out loud, u edify wat u r feeling & take decisive action! Talk about Power of Confession! So I know wat I want in my head, but I'll keep confessing, edifying myself, & walk towards my goal! Amen!

Got charged up n energized, God filled up my emotional tank, & e sickly feeling turns out 2 b hunger pangs. *growwl* lol. Praise U Jesus. Gonna grab a bite then hit e sack. :)

What a Day..

The title says it all. *phew* I'm poofed. Woke up @ 11am, went 2 have lunch w my parents then went Bras Basah Mac 2 study w Davin, YuZhen & ShiYi.

2 CG leaders & 1 soon 2 be, had a great time w them, Davin started his matchmaking nonsense again. lol Don't understand Y some ppl r so fearful of CG leaders. They r also human, they eat, drink, & know how 2 have fun too, yet some ppl feel uptight & unnatural around them. Guess it's e kind of relationship they choose to build. Some ppl open up, some build a defensive wall for fear of being classifed as worldly.. :s Mental block. Muz pray for good, strong relationships 2 be built. Relationships not based on fear & rules, but on respect & openess. If not it'll only be a barrier preventing growth.

Studied 3hrs then went 2 Kallang 2 recky the place for this sat workout. Went 2 my tuition kids place after that. He'd finished his examz, but I promised 2 go swimming w him, so my word is my bond. haha.. Really love kids. They're a joy 2 be w. In future I hope 2 have 3 kids. ;)

Every man muz have a vision, a purpose 2 run after. Without which a man is aimless, dead, out of God's will! Feeling a little disappointed, coz lately, a few have not been so encouraging. In many cases they seem 2 be right in wat they say. But hey! The vision is mine, so I'll run e course w diligence. A man plans his ways, but God directs his path. If something doesn't work out, CHANGE E METHOD. God never said 2 change e dream! Would Pst Kong or Rev Ulf be where they r if they were so easilt affected by wat others say? Thank God 4 e book of Job, coz many times when i feel like giving up, I'm reminded of him. He was a Godly man, & he had a vision that he will worship God & honor Him inspite of his situation. Although his close friendz did not see eye 2 eye w him. He knew wat he was doing, & where he was going. Thank God 4 his faith, w/o it, I wouldn't find e courage or strength 2 carry on. Thank God 4 e bible. (L) :D

Went 2 watch MI3 w Irenus, Bryan & Kenneth. Great show! 11/10 on goodness. :) It's of this secret agent who decided 2 stop field work & teach recruits instead becoz he decided 2 settle down. However when his newly wedded wife got kidnapped, he went all e way out 2 save his wife. Even did a lot of silly things that almost got him killed. HaHa.. It is true. A man will do all things 4 e 1 he loves, even if it kills him. ;p

God I trust in U.
Even if the world was for me but U r not,
all that I have in my heart will fail.
The rains will come, fire will break out,
all e planning in e world cannot stop Ur Hand.
Who can command U or tell U wat 2 do?
Was not all created for Ur glory?

So I will trust in U my God,
my Alpha & Omega; beginning & end,
Out of love & compassion U created,
2 glorify & reflect Ur Greatness.
A man may plan his ways,
but U r the 1 who directs his path.
U r upright, U r Holy, U r faithful.
Man may fail but U never fail.
So I will trust in U & wait upon U,
my Lord, my God, my 1st love.

Sometimes it's so much easier expressing oneself in writing.. :)

Good, Bad & Ugly.. lol

Went 2 have my hair cut. Think God made me w short hair. Definately look better. Look less sleepy, more fit. Caught a few ppl looking my way after that. lol

Saw Serene @ City Hall she was going 4 make-up artist meeting. Had dinner w her @ Carl's Jr. Spent $21 on juz 2 of us. The portion was soooo big we couldn't finish our burgers & hardly touched our fries. We both learned a valueable lesson today: Never go 2 Carl's Jr unless 2 u running on an empty tank! lol

Finally bought my stuff. Thanks 2 Serene whole helped me. Sadly my 1st paper is on her birthday. :( Furthurmore she doesn't have time 2 spare. Double whammy.. :(

But I trust in God, everything in due time & season runs it's course. God makes all things beautiful in HIS TIME. :D

So Cute!!!

Mom cooked roast beef today. Was totally yummy!! She had 1 BIG meat, roasted it, sliced it into bite size pieces, made some gravy, & walla~ beef sandwiches!! YUMMY!! :p Missed home cooked food 4 1 month. Wolfed down 5 or 6 of them i think. lol There goes my waistline. :p

Went 2 visit my grandma after that. Totally awesome! Got 2 see my 2 youngest cousins. They r soooo cute... 1 more WIP! lol He or she will be due end of e year I think. 3 is a good number. In future I'd also wanna have 3 kids. 2 boys, 1 girl hopefully. :p

Was supposed 2 have SF training @ nite, but cancelled due 2 bad weather. In e army we classify it as 'CAT 1' (lightning storm). Ended up having dinner w Ian & Neo @ Pasta Mania, Bugis. More fattening food. :p Love spending time w Neo. Such a great guy. His easy nature & optimism inspires me. :) Went 2 meet Ron 4 a few games of pool after that. Only @ 9pm did I remember that there was a Prayer Meeting tonite @ Jurong. Sheez! Talk about STM.

Was talking 2 some1 yesterday. That person says I behave v childish sometimes.. Wat 2 do, when I am who I am, ppl say I very fierce n unfriendly. Like that also ppl don't like. Haiz.. God I can only be who U made me 2 be. :)



KorKor likes 2 play w my drumstick, guitar & little djamba. Maybe when he grows up,
he'll be a worship leader. lol


MeiMei sleeping. Fell asleep beside her too.


OhOh..MeiMei wake up..


2 sleepy faces. lol

Day Of Fulfillment

Wat a day.. Was woken up by my dad. He was craving 4 laksa, carrot cake & thick black coffee, things he missed when in Sydney during e last 1 month. So had 2 drag myself out of bed.

Watched TV w my parents when we came back. Watched "1st Knight", set in King Authur's domain. The story was of bravery, lost trust regained, loyalty & love. Really like this kinda show. Feel I can relate a lot 2 it. Learn a lot too although it's juz a story.

Went 4 tuition after that. My kid's mid term test is on Wednessday. Muz pray earnestly 4 him. Gave him another test, didn't do as well as I'd expected, 75%. But it's still an GREAT accomplishment taking into consideration he failed last yr. :p The boy talked about backsliding on-line in e afternoon. Guess he was discouraged somehow. Encouraged him a bit. He was fine when I arrived 4 tuition.

Met up w Davin & e rest of SIM gang after that. Managed 2 squeeze in 3hrs of study. Was late in sending in SF updated particulars. So much 2 do. This guy, +30yrs started talking 2 me when I was studying, & all Wenfu could do was give a mischevious smile. Thanks man. Sent YuZhen home. Enjoy talking 2 her, she's so optimistic all e time. She really seems 2 know how go into a person's heart & relate. Thanks gal. ;) Less than a yr 2 go. I'll be praying 4 u. ;p

Renewing My Mind!

WoW.. Wat a day.. Talk about being in God's favour.

Woke up late today. 9am! CG start @ 10am. Rushed my morning routines, had 2 clear 2 house a little parents coming back @ nite. :p Juz left my house when Serene called me. She found her way 2 Punggol when CG was @ Parkway!! The place she was @ was soo out of e way, no taxi wanted 2 take e call. lol Had 2 make a tough judgement call. It's pretty bad if e guitarist is late 4 CG, but I remember some1 once 'joked': "Darryl!! How could u leave ur sheep lost!" lol Thanks Millie. :p Made a detour. Arrived @ CG place @ 10:10am, Sis Jo & most of e members not there. Praise the Lord! :p Talk about doing wat is right & all things will fall into place..

Was supposed 2 go out w Serene 2 check something out. But then we made a detour.. Thanks.. U really made my day. :D

HPT was good today. Had 2 learn a new beat. Kindda like e groove. :) Out of e blue Jennifer asked me 2 teach MTT 2 play Alpha. Caught me off guard. Didn't prepare for it. Totally forgot e sequence. *pengz* Thank goodness managed 2 teach them e whole of part 'C' after making much error. lol :p Some of e guys were jamming w Bro Boon after prac. Was awesome! Wish i could upload it here.

After keeping our stores rushed 2 e airport 2 pick up my parents. Praise e Lord they're finally home after 1 LONG month. Was too quiet @ home. lol Kana scolded again when @ e airport. Forgot how many IEMs (In Ear Monitors) SF supposed 2 have. That was totally my fault. I must be more sharp in e things I do. Have 2 be accountable 2 God 4 e lives of e ppl & e equipment He has put in my hands. Pray, Pray, Pray, Apply, Aplly, Apply! I CAN DO IT THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!

Arms aching from yesterday's workout. Boy I needa get back in shape..
Am happy today. Breaking down e wall. :D

Vote for e 1st time :)

Slept only 5hrs last nite. Couldn't really focus e rest of e day bcoz of that. Woke up @ 9am, went 2 e voting stsion juz opposite my house (so near! lol). Took less than 5min. *phew* almost voted 4 e wrong party (haven't wake up yet. :p).

Got 2 redhill juz in time, 11am. Trying 2 set a good example by being on time. It's not easy being a leader sometimes as I've learned. U gotta be focused, determined, set a good example & be encouraging @ e same time. lol Was disappointed that only 10 ppl showed up. But all things start small. I believe that w hard work & perseverance, the other people will see our effort & be encouraged 2 join us. :D Did a 15min run around Redhill. 2km I think. Went over 2 e fitness station nearby & did some 2 sets of staion training. Can't do much now as everybody's body is not yet conditioned. Relaxed @ e playground after that. lol Headed 2 Ikea 4 a feast after that.So sinful, ate so much. lol Joked & relaxed, got 2 know e others a little better. Learned that Verena, e 10yr old girl is half Swiss, & she's sooooo very shy & quiet. Her mom on e other hand is e opposite, outgoing & funny. lol Had a great time talking 2 them. :)



Service was awesome today. Pst Casey Treat. His 1st time in our church, looks like an actor.
The sermon was good. About prospering in ALL areas, not only finances. 2 do that u need 2 shift from being carnal minded to being God minded, meaning, thinking like how God will think, look through His eyes. Wanna prosper in all ares, especially in my relationship. God I believe it in U, when U say it will happen. I WILL plan & walk according 2 ur word.

Celebrated Sis Jo's birthday Juz now. Waited 1hr for her b4 that. She's always soooo bz. Could see she was touched. She was totally lost 4 words, tears rolling down her cheeks. :p



Sis Jo standing on e steps, addressing her audience.

Finally spent time w e CG. Went 2 TM 2 have dinner & played pool. Supposed 2 have a high priority gig 4 PM Lee. Bro Boon called @ 4pm & told me 2 get 20 ppl! So last min, but it's like that in ministry sometimes, & i do love e challenge. ;p It was a frantic franzy, put thank God Kenneth & Yee Hao were there 2 help me call e ppl. Thanks guyz u were great. Most of e ppl I needed were already in e service. lol Wanted 2 get Zhu involved too, but sadly she wasn't really prepared. U can do it! I have faith in u gir.. JiaYou!! ;)

Tomorrow gonna be a long day. Have 2 rush 2 e airport after prac. Parents finally coming home. It won't be so lonely @ home anymore, but it also means more noise. :p








Last time I can use e tub. It's sooo comfortable after a long tiring day lol

Waste Of Time? No Way!

Met Ian this afternoon, @ Marina Square again. lol Went 2 buy jeans from S&K, cost me $90 bucks! It looks so funky I dare not wear it, but no choice, muz wear this sat. Wardrobe running out of claothing. HaHa.. They had a shop selling Astroboy clothing too. Went Carl's Jr after that. Shared 2 boxes of 'Chillie Cheese Fries' (highly recommended :p) free flow coke. Felt like a couple. lol j/k ;)

Went for tuition after that. Bought a workbook for him & gave him a surprise test. He took 1hr 2 do a 2hr paper, & scored 78/80! I'm Sooo proud of him! :) While he was doing e test, took e time 2 do some "folding work". HaHa.. Confused?? It's a little thing I've been doing 4 more than a month now. :p

Went down 4 BS after that. Was 2hrs early. Ended up watching e korean soap oprah & doing more "folding". Joanne tried 2 do 1, but gave up even b4 completing half of it. lol & u wonder why I'm taking so long 2 complete it. :p Well I've got another 15 days 2 complete e work. & YES! It is worth it! BS ended @ midnight. Praise God it's e last lesson. Can't stay out late anymore, examz a few weeks away. "Gifts of The Holy Spirit" is simply AWESOME! It teaches us how 2 flow w e Holy Spirit & brings us up another level altogether. For those of u who find BS a chore, PLZ! I BESEECH U, PERSEVERE ON!!!! All that u learn is 2 build u up for something greater. If u do not build your foundations right, u will not be able 2 apprehend wat is taught here. DO NOT LIMIT URSELF MY FRIENDS! HaHa.. I don't usual emphasize like that, so U BETTER GET E POINT! lol

Time 2 sleep. Haven't planned this sat workout yet. Kanna by Jennifer already. lol :p


Astroboy 2 e rescue!!! HaHaHa... ;)

It's Not About Me..

Today was an ok day. Met up w Liz my childhood friend whom i knew in sunday schhol. Used 2 tease her & pull her hair. HaHa.. My my.. How we've grown. HaHa.. Now we tease each other w words. Take care my DEAR friend. I thank God for having u. :) Went 2 'Skin' 2 check on an item. Had chocolate milk shake @ Secret Receipes after that, juz realise we were teasing each other a little about how we have deep dark secrets. lol

can u guess how much it cost?? :p

Elizebeth Gail Wilmot, my childhood friend. She also took part in this year's Chingay, wearing e Chomsam I think..

Met met up w Derek, Micheal & Julia after that. Supposed 2 play basketball, but poor Julia & Micheal didn't have a chance 2 play. They went TM instead 2 fellowship. Sorry guyz, feel like i pang se u. :p

Went down 2 Singapore Casket after that. Jem's grandfather passed away. Surprisingly, they took it quite well. They were smiling & entertaining guests. I was introduced 2 e rest of Jem's family & some of his relatives. Seems like they know a lot aout me. They were so nice & hospitable, it made me blush a little, it was like I was part of e family. :p What have i done 2 deserve such friendship? All I can do is thank God for His Grace & Mercy, for giving me a friendship I never thought possible. It is not by my might or works that i have such a wonderful friend. Thank U Jesus.

Was reading this book "It's not about me", by Max Luado. Great book! Talks about shifting our focus on 'I attitude', 2 a God centred 1. Spent an hour in e bathtub reading it. lol Parents coming back from overseas soon, so better use e bathtub as much as I can. :p

Read 2 chapters. Talked about how juz 1 glimpse of God's glory can propel a person from where he is, 2 where God wants Him 2 be, & carrying His glory, we will be able 2 do all things even when e world may seem 2 be against us. All that God does & we should do, is 2 glorify Him. Coz that's only way ppl r gonna know Him & come into His presence. It's like we r all in a sinking boat, & if the rescuer does not show his capabilities & capacity, he would not be able 2 earn e trust of e ppl he's trying 2 save. The next chapter was about us glorifying Him. It's like us watching an awesome show like 'Matrix', after that, we can do nothing but talk about the show telling how awesome it is. It is e same w God. Once we've had a taste of Him & His glory, all we can do is boast of Him!

Feel so blessed these few weeks. Though some areas r still WIP, I will trust in God, worship Him & glorify Him, coz in His time, He makes all things fall in place. What an awesome God I serve.

Bravo, GOD, Bravo!
Gods & all angels shout, "Encore!"
In awe before the glory,
In awe of GOD's visible power.
Stand at attention!
Dress your best to honour Him!

GOD thunders across the waters,
Brilliant, His voice & His face, streaming brightness-
GOD, accross the flood waters.

GOD's thundering tympanic,
GOD's thunder symphonic.

GOD's thunder smashes cedars,
GOD topples the northern cedars.

The mountain ranges skip like spring colts,
The high ridges jump like wild kid goats.

GOD's thunder spits fire.
GOD thunders, the wilderness quakes;
He makes the desert of Kadesh shake.

GOD's thunder sets the oak trees dancing,
A wild dance, whirling; the pelting rain strips their branches.
We fall to our knees- we call out, "GLORY!"

(Psalms 29:1-9 MSG)

Really like this version. Very expressive & colourful. But u should read the NKJV version as well. :)

Revelation In a Tub.. lol

Juz got out of e tub. Had a bubble bath. Haha.. Finally, 3 weeks after my parents left, i decided 2 use e tub. Spent half an hour in there. Almost fell asleep. lol

Said a short prayer b4 soaking myself, didn't know God would answer so quickly. I was floating on my back (yes although my tub is small, it is still possible), began sinking after a while as I tried different breathing methods 2 keep me afloat. It got 2 a point where e water came over my face. Only my mouth & nose were above e water. Then God spoke.

What is keeping u afloat? Is it not e air in ur lungs. Inhale & u will float, exhale & u will sink. ("what simple logic" I thought 2 myself.) Ur life is like this, e air u breath is like a dream/vision. Whether it stays afloat & alive is up 2 u. Even though, u r barely afloat in ur dream/vision, we muz not let go of it, for when we do, we will sink! Instead, we should enlarge our capacity 2 take in more & air.

Was meditating on this when God furthur showed me: "wat r ur greatest fear? Losing her?" When i really thought about it, I realise that was not e case. Instead I was afraid of losing the present time w her. I was afraid she'd lose her cuteness & innocence. The way she smiles showing all her pearly white teeth. How she wears her skirt & looks so gir gir. Then it struck me like a tonne of bricks! I was being selfish! I was afraid I'd lose e feeling for her as she grows older & loses all that I've come 2 love about her! Instead of being an inspiration & blessing 2 her, instead of giving her reasons 2 keep on smiling & being cute & innocent, I was being possessive. I wanted 2 keep her 4 myself. In a way, I was robbing her of all reasons 2 stay e way she is! Lovely & pure.

I feel like a total idiot! A total jerk! God plz forgive me. Thank U 4 showing me e error of my ways. Plz continue 2 guide me 2 treat her right, as how U would treat her. That she will be able 2 continue 2 shine for U & bless others w her smile.

Don't know how 2 apologise 2 her, but I pray that I'd be able 2 be there 4 her, 2 encourage & support, instead of being a stumbling block. Let all that i do be seasoned w salt, accompannied w sincerity.

Sianzz

Stayed @ home e whole day today. A whole 24hrs gone 2 waste. Sianz.. Irritated her again. Hmmm.. Knew it was a bad idea 2 stay @ home. The mind wonders when u've got nothing 2 do. Learnt my lesson e hard way. @ least Serene was supportive. Thank u my friend. :)

Hellooo Blogspot!!!

Decided 2 change blog. Friendster doesn't support flashbox. So sad. Had 2 copy paste my last few entries. Still haven't got a hang of blogging yet.. But in due time, It'll be a stinch. ;) wish I could put smileys in. lol

Woke up @ 1pm. Couldn't find ppl 2 have lunch w, so ate by myself. Did 4 days worth of laundry. Ended up I didn't have anything nice 2 wear today. lol

Met Joanne & Jem for dinner @ Taka. Visited Zhu.. She's getting prettier & prettier everyday i see her. She's also getting close 2 Mr C. :( Feeling so lost. God I worship U & trust in U. Though I do not see e desired results now, I'll keep on keeping on. Plz guide me.

Ron staying over @ my place. He was dismissed @ midnight, have 2 report early tomorrow morning, so he decided 2 bunk out w me. Joanne & Serene gonna transfer over 2 E301. In a way it'll be like old timez, but think she's slightly affected by e change. No 1 likes sudden changes, esp when u've juz adapted 2 1. But some times God needs 2 shift us around till we r where we r supposed 2 be. And not all routes will be easy & painless. It's all a matter of exposure, maturity & timing. In God's season & time.

Have 2 get down 2 studying. Examz only a few days away & I'm totally not prepared. Too much on my mind: Examz, family, Zhu, NDP, SF. So much 2 do, so little time. Lord I trust all that I have into Ur hands 4 Ur glory. Plz strengthen & guide me everyday, every moment I have belongs 2 U.

I love U Jesus

Today was a marvelous day. Started out slow though. :p Had only 5hrs of sleep, but thank God for His strength. Got recharged during svc today. I love U Jesus.


Woke up late, 9am. Supposed 2 meet e rest @ expo then, but all of us overslept, except for Julia. lol Thank God for her faithfulness we got seats near e front.

Was really blessed by the word today, was actually falling asleep during svc, but suddenly e Holy Spirit woke me up saying," Hey! This is wat I've been telling u e past few weeks. Wake up!"

fervant - hot, on fire
passion - is fire on e inside that will show on e outside
- is a driving force which keeps u going & not burn out
intelligence alone gets u nowhere
passion + attitude does
enthusiasm + persistence = result
guard e fire, keep fueling it, coz it's our responsibility.
apathy- no passion
lukewarmness- serving God w/o offending e devil.

4 passion killers:

1. complacency
- let whatever u want 2 see take care of itself, meaning, let nature take it's course.
- age/time muz not stop u from going 2 where u muz be.
- juz when u think u've arrived, guess what, there's more! :)

2. difficult circumstances
- w/o problems, we will never learn 2 overcome.

3. unbalanced lifestyle
- doing too much will get u burned out.
- success- rhythem of work & rest, give & take, pushing & letting go. know e timing

4. familiarity


Fire Goers:

1. activate ur spiritual gift
- when u use ur gift, u get charged up/excited

2. associate w ppl of passion

3. return 2 ur 1st love
- get back 2 where u left off

4. pray 4 passion
- Jesus baptizes us w e Holy Spirit & fire.

WHAT U TOLERATE WILL NEVER CHANGE.
NEVER WAIT FOR TOMORROW.


Was really blessed. Feel so charged up & excited!! :) Want e book "God & the Davinci code" or something like that. So many claims & theory coming up. Need see wat God says about it.


Feeling very tired today. Not enough sleep. Suddenly during SF training today was bombarded w a lot of responsiblity. Bro Boon & Jennifer were not around till 6+. So had 2 oversee every1. Also had 2 teach e snare ppl around me. HaHa.. was learning too & had 2 teach everybody. Was kindda stressed coz there were drummers in my group, & due 2 my tiredness was afraid i'd be harsh 2 e ppl. :p Thank God that did not happen. For e 1st time, I played & ppl record. Honestly, I'm e least qualified among e performing pioneers. Thank God 4 His grace.

My God is GREAT. My God is AWESOME. My God is WONDERFUL. I love HIM, & I know HE loves me too. Sensed Him w me a lot today, altough there was much 2 do, God is always with me & for me. No matter wat happens, I will always love U LORD!

Sunday, April 30, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)

What a Day! Thank U Jesus 4 Ur strength!

Phew! what a day indeed.. Long, hectic & tiring. Thank God for His supernatural strength, if not i would have fallen asleep driving home juz now..

Woke up @ 8pm. Late.. Went warehouse 2 collect some stuff for training, met Luke @ 9:30am 2 learn e beats, got 2 teach e ppl. So sad, not many ppl turned up for training today. Makes me so AARRGGHHH!! when i see such things. Here we r sacrificing our time, energy & effort 2 do our best n glorify Jesus, yet many ppl not running w e same vision. Makes me wanna cry sometimes. Many of us, having probs, exams & stress, yet we do our best & all, yet others taking it so lightly. Guess it's bcoz of POS & Emerge games. Muz be more understanding & be bigger on e inside. Jesus I trust U to work things out. We r here 2 glorify U! not ourselves!

After prac actually went 2 expo 2 book seats for e CG. Went in illegally b4 e doors were opened. HaHa.. But even in the bible it says "the violent shall take it by FORCE! & God will give it to them bcoz of their faith."

The gig today was good. 200 tables! WOW!!! & all e big shots there. A PAP candidate was there too as e guest of honour. He knew who we were & where we came from. He was like:" U guess r from City Harvest! I saw u during Chingay!" We r really making an impact in e marketplace. Everywhere we go, ppl know about us. Since e start of e year, we've had almost 20 gigs. That's like once every week! Supposed 2 have more, but we rejected a few & e church rejected a few too. If not too shiong also. :p Sadly like I say, not many ppl in SF have caught e vision yet. Tried imparting it 2 some ppl, but she thought i was throwing my authority around, sad :'(. Learned 1 good thing. If u wanna go places, u have 2 be willing 2 sacrifice all else, & u gotta press in. Things don't juz fall on ur lap.

Kana whacked by Bro Boon again.. Thought we lost a Tom~Tom, actually drummer Micheal borrowed it. *Phew* Brought all 12 Tom~Toms out instead of 9 which Bro Boon instructed. Took up a lot of space. Got scolded 4 that too, but thank God i brought them, coz there was 1 part, all of us had 2 play & there were juz enough Toms! lol So i thank God for the scolding, even though it may sound unreasonable @ times, but i learn lots from this great man of God. ;p
Gonna crash now.. EEeekk.. Only 5hrs sleep! Dear God, plz give me rest that tomorrow i'll be totally recharged & renewed, let ur glory fall on me tat others can see U in me.

She came into my mind a lot today. I love her, but gotta go slow. God I trust in U, I lift her into ur hands. Plz protect her & deal w my insecurities. She is indead beautiful in God's eyes & mine. But God has e 1st place, her family 2nd, & hopefully i can have 3rd.
ZZzzz..

can't even see e end to e tables. think those seating halfway can't even hear us lol

Saturday, April 29, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)

Tired..

Was a long day today. Haven't been having enough sleep lately with the emotional & study stress lurking around me. Trying 2 distract myself in all possible ways & wind that praising & worshipping God is the best solution, coz God never fails us. :)

Woke up @ almost noon. Was really Sa.. Stoned for an hour before meeting Ian for lunch. Went to storehub 2 get our stores ready. Prac was @ 5pm, Suntec Convention Hall for NTUC. They really like us lots I think, coz they asked us 2 perform 3 different instances, & they'd do a camera sweep over us. lol so excited.. Many of the election candidates will be there tomorrow, so we gotta do our best.

Let's see.. Have 2 wake up @ 7am, meet Ian for breakfast, go back storehub 2 get some equipment, meet Luke @ 9:30 2 learn some stuff, prac starts @ 10am. 1pm we supposed 2 end, then I gotta bring e guyz for physical training & a tan. Gotta be @ suntec again @ 5pm for the gig which will start @ 7pm & end around 9pm hopefully. still considering whether I should send my cousin off @ e airport. Midnight flight *faint*.

Gonna be a long long day tomorrow. Better get as much ZZzzz as possible. Oh yah! Went to play billard w my cousins juz now. Been a long time since i went out w them. 1 of them lives in Australia, another training 2 be a pilot, so also dont see him much. Last 1 stays @ home all day playing com game. *Peng!* All asking me where's my gf. Wished i could proudly tell about her. But I'll trust in God & know that in HIS time, all things WILL work for the good of His ppl.
Time 2 sign off. ZZZzzz..

Friday, April 28, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)

In The Beginning..

Been wanting 2 start s blog for ages.. Finally got down to doing it. lol "Y start now?" U might ask. Let's juz say that certain events have occurred & I need an outlet. The need 2 let my heart out in a place where only God, I & my close friends will go to, w/o sounding like I'm in a pitiful or sorry state. Haha.. So in another words, this is a dumping ground for all e trash that happens, but more than that, I hope that by expressing myself, I can turn it around into something positive 2 encourage myself n hopefully my readers.

Been feeling really crappy lately.. I'm in love, but I can't seem 2 control my emotions. It seems that all I try 2 do turns out 2 be wrong, having a -ve effect. God help me!! I love her, but instead of attracting her 2 me & being a blessing 2 her, I'm repelling & irritating her. I try 2 know her more, understand her, but there is no breakthrough. Instead the matter gets worse! God plz help me, coz she's important to me, & i'm losing her, even her friendship. Plz deal with me.. HELP!

Feel so helpless, so vulnerable. Been calling out 2 God, but I don't seem 2 be getting a reply. Yet @ times like this, I hear His still small voice calling out, "Worship Me.." Many times I answer back, "God how do u expect me 2 worship & trust U in my current state?!" I was angry, with myself for allowing things 2 go so bad, & with God for allowing it to happen. But God juz keeps saying, "Worship Me.." It's so hard to some times, but in my years I've learned 2 listen 2 Him & trust Him. So I worshipped. When I started, I felt like crap, didn't feel like continuing @ all, but His voice keeps ringing in my ear "Worship Me.." It might sound freaky 2 some ppl, but i've learned 2 hear & trust His voice, so i juz do it!

He showed me many things that faithful day I trust Him & heed His voice:

1) worship is a decision we have to make. In spite of how we r feeling, whether we r having a good or bad day, we HAVE TO worship Him bcoz of who HE is, not how we feel. Be like king David who worship God @ all times of e day, even when he was surrounded by his enemies. It's a matter of ATTITUDE. So let's get our heart right.

2) when we worship God, we tell devil that no matter what happens, our faith & relationship with God will not be shaken. In a way, we r allowing God 2 encourage us. Like Job, a God fearing man who kept His commandments. God allowed him to go through trials & tribulations, but he chose 2 have the right attitude 2 praise & worship instead of cursing Him or feeling sorry for himself.

3) when we worship, it allows our spirit 2 intertwind w God's spirit, n He shows us things like what i've shared so far.

4) when we worship, all things fall in place, coz God hears our prayers accompanied with our worship, & it pleases Him.

5) everything we go through is common 2 man. When we think we r alone, He shows us that we r not & He brings in ppl we can relate to.
So up till now, He hasn't shown me a way out of my desert, but He continues 2 ask me to 'WORSHIP ME' & trust in Him, & I'll keep on doing that, coz MY GOD IS AN AWESOME & FAITHFUL GOD.

Thursday, April 27, 2006 Permalink Comments (0)