:D

Went for my run after work. Maanaged 2 run 3km consistently. Tat confirms my silver, but now i wanna aim 4 gold.

Fatigue setting in.. Feeling sick.. But thank God somebody made my day.. :) Thank God tat angel.. :)

Monday Blues..

Having e Monday blues. Thank God it got over once I was bz in e office. haha.. I really enjoy e environment, & I love e view of e sea. :) This will be a long week..

Monday-Friday: work
Monday- tuition & prac
Tuesday- contacthead meeting
Wednesday- physical training
Thursday- CG
Friday- tuition

Needa find time 2 prac more. Wanna shine 4 God in KL. Muz not be sloppy. It's all a matter of mind over body. "I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me."

Needa get as much rest as I can.

Information->Process->Action->Result

Wahooo.. The last 3 days have been AWESOME!! Dr Bernard is indeed my favourite teacher. Had been waiting eagerly 4 him 2 come every year, but an emergency alwasys prevented his coming. Really love him. He's an indepth teacher, philosopher, economist & friend of God. haha.. Can't wait 4 him 2 come back again soon. :)

So much he talked about, I don't know where 2 start! How..
- A man muz be specific. Don't juz be generalize, but he muz know where he's going, how he plans 2 get there, & how long he'll take. (specific vision)
- information = power = authority
- info processed in our mind, turns into beliefs, which affects our self esteem, which results in a decisive action, which produces results, which become habits for success or failure. (my favourite)
- so if u keep on failing, change e way u think, & consider e quality of e info u input (^-^)
- ur input determines ur output
- counselling is ineffective unless u r 1st taught on e matter
- couselling only helps when u have applied wat u have learned yet it does not work
- God works in patterns & it is so successful tat e devil is trying 2 imitate.
- in every relationship, it starts in an introduction, becomes an acquaintance, grows into friendship, & may blossom into intimacy
- not everybody gets 2 intimacy

So much more he talked about, so much info & knowledge. haha.. think i stop here as these r e few tat really impacted me. :) Rushed 2 queue 2 get his autograph. He's so engaging, even when I told him he really changed e way I think, he looked @ me in an interesting way & said"Really! I'm glad 2 hear tat." Sounds so normal, but u should have seen e look on his face, it showed genuineness & engagement of e Spirit. Wanted 2 say more, but there's a time & window 4 everything. haha.. Really love & appreciate him. If i can, i'd like 2 visit his church in New York & learn from him.

Rushed 2 cut & dye my hair after tat. Made it juz in time 4 physical training @ Bedok Camp, gonna improve my timing & get a silver award. :) Rushed 2 e hall 4 SF prac after tat. T'was so stressful when Bro Boon made us perform 'Destiny' in front of everybody. Everybody was looking @ us so full of expectancy w their camaras. haha.. muz rise up & not get so easily affected by my surroundings. :)

( ^_^ )

Yesterday when I was juz gonna get off work, I wished in my heart tat I need not go tuition tonight. Needed a rest. When I was on e bus, my tuition kid msg me not 2 come today as he's got oral exam the next day. Tried 2 bargain w him but 2 no avail. lol

Thank U God 4 hearing me,
I did not ask out loud
but U heard my whisper.
U hear every word in my heart
every thought I have U have seen.
Thank U 4 listening,
4 always being there,
4 being ever so real 2 me.

Juz as I commented tat I have never been home early, i reached home @ a record earliest of 7:30pm. *woah~ooo* watched some tv, spent time w my mom, & another testimony of how good God is..

Was too tired 2 get out of e house 4 dinner, so my dad offered 2 buy pork porridge on e way back. I was too tired, couldn't think, 4got 2 tell him anything but pork porridge & don't want egg. haha.. But lo & behold, when he came back, he got exactly wat I needed, beef ball porridge w/o egg & a lot of fried onion topping! Amazing thing is that I've never had that b4. LoL.. Talk about divine intervention. Thank U God. :)

Surrender - CCC

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Been reaching home late everyday & by e time I wash up, it's bed time.

Enjoying working life. Today is officially my 10th day. My supervisor takes care of us & treats us once in awhile, we joke & laugh whenever there's nothing 2 do. But 1 bad habit he has is tat he dumps work on us an hr b4 lunch & b4 we knock off from work, so in e mornings we have nothing 2 do, but @ e end of e day, we end up doing OT. lol But I like going off after e sun has set & we can see e lights of Singapore. :)

Have not been getting enough sleep, usually OT till 7pm+. Then tuition twice a week, compulsary physical training w e army twice a week, CG on Thursday. Weekends packed wservice & ministry, which means I have sat mornings & 1 week nite free. lol Earliest I've been home so far is... 10:30pm I think?? lol Muz get used 2 working life, stretching myself & balancing my time & commitments. *phew*

There were a lot of things tat happened since my last entry which I wanted 2 blog down, but juz didn't have e time. But e summary of it is tat whenever I'm sad or angry, or do not know wat 2 do, God always sends an angel (meaning ppl) 2 perk my day, build me up & strengthen & encourage me.

I thank U God for Your love & care.
When I'm weak You are strong,
You're my feet when I can't move on,
You're the light in the dark,
You're the whisper inside my heart.
& I surrender all to You.

My God is so good. There's no changing that.

A relationship once established cannot be broken unless u choose 2 allow it 2 die.

Wanna thank a few ppl who have impacted my these 2 weeks,

Julia- her dedication & laughter is contagious. never once have i heard her complain although she's stretched 2 e max & lacks sleep.
Jennifer Lam- her encouraging & inspiring msgs also perk me up, & her contagious laugh & sincerity touch my heart. Go teacher :)
Jennifer Teh (aka mother)- haha.. thanks 4 listening
Jeremy (aka the bird)- for being my good friend & taking all my nonsense for soooo many years. haha.. thanks for all e lobangs man. ;)
Most of all I wanna thank my Lord Jesus, 4 He was e 1 who sent all these angels mentioned above, & for His constant encouragement. The walks & talks we've had brings me closer in love w Him & builds me up 2 be a better man.

ZZzzz..

Felt so sleepy during work today. Muz get used 2 working life. Changes have 2 be made.

Went 4 a run juz now. Feel so refreshed & renewed in mind, body & spirit. Running always makes me feel good. :)

Talked 2 my ZS/CGL on Sunday. T'was a long overdue conversation where I poured out everything 2 her, my desires, my fears, my heart. She was packed full giving BS, but I thank God 4 giving me a "free time" w her. Turned out we had almost an 45min talk. HaHa..

Needa define my boundaries. Have been doing too much w/o having a clear vision & goal. As a result, all tat I put my heart 2 either fell through or tore me apart. Thank u Sis Jo. :)

We r all like trees, there is no limit 2 how much we can grow. But all trees have a boundary 2 grow. If it wants 2 grow BIG & STRONG, it needa have deep roots 2 hold it up, a thick trunk 2 support its branches, much leaves 2 capture sunlight, & It can't be kept in a pot. W/o any of these e tree won't last long. Wind, storm & cloudy dayz will cause e tree 2 fall. We too r like tat, many ppl wanna go up, up, up, but forget e other aspects. We need 2 be grounded, define where we r going & holding steadfast 2 our vision. We need have big capacity (trunk), coz as u go up, responsibility & prob will pull u down. We have 2 spread our branches & have more leaves, expand our mind, knowledge & network. Most importantly, we cannot set ourselves in a pot (small thinking). Needa define e parameters 2 grow.

So here r my parameters:
1) Wanna work hard & establish myself so I'm financially stable
2) Dedicate a time 2 seek my God
3) exercise 3x a week
4) wait till end of next April like God asked me to
5) build up my ppl
6) learn 2 say 'no'

Help me God as I plan & define my parameters. A man plans his ways, but You direct his path.

:p

Wat a fulfilling day. 1st day @ Fuji Xerox & I was late. Taxi driver brought me a big round. *Ouch* on my wallet! I thank God e ppl there r friendly, love e view of our country's port. Hopefully can convert 2 be a perm staff there. HaHa.. They offered a good starting pay 4 temp staff. :p Most of e things I do there related 2 accounts checking, which means a lot of excel usage.

Went 4 tuition after work. So sad I couldn't make it 4 FOP. But God gives responsibilites 2 us all 4 a reason, & a promise is a promise. Slept during e 1hr bus ride. Was really flat out. Think I tend 2 lean too much coz after a while, no one wanted 2 seat beside me. HaHa.. Even during tuition, Raymond was more guai today. He was irritated tat i came so late, but hey.. No choice. I thank God 4 e impact I am making in Raymond's life, not only helping him in his studies, but being a friend & guidance 2 him as well. But more than tat, God has used him 2 mould & shape me too. We spend much time after tuition juz talking & recently, we've been playing softball @ e 1st floor landing. God really taught me wat it means 2 meet a need 2 day. Many times, ppl want us 2 meet their wants! Like spending time shopping, talking & hanging out, but many times there is no depth & accomplishment @ e end of e day. Hmm.. Maybe my expectations r too high, or maybe I'm juz sick of wasting wat time i have left. I guess I'm guilty of demanding & having my wants fulfilled. But I have a need too, it's juz so intense sometimes it seems 2 become a more of a demand than anything else. God plz deal w me in this area. I needa change.

Went jogging after tat. Wanted 2 run round e outskirt of Tampines, but Tampines was much bigger than I thought, managed 2 cover 1/3 way in 39 min, about slightly more than 5km I think. Needa build myself up more. Love 2 run, allows me 2 get away from everything, think clearly, & God speaks clearest when I'm running. :) Reminds me of my secondary school dayz when I'd run home from Tanah Merah mrt station 2 Kembangan mrt station. HaHa.. Those were e dayz. :)

Higher!!

I wanna thank my God 4 His goodness & grace.
It's not by might, nor by power tat gets me places,
but 4 His favour & guidance I would be totally lost.

He gave me a job, in 15min eveything was settled.
He gave me a starting pay beyond wat I expected,
He gave me friends 2 help me stand on my feet.

Out of carelessness I uttered words which shouldn't be said,
Out of stupidity I did things I shouldn't have done.

When I should be put 2 shame 4 e blunder I made,
He showed me His love & compassion instead.
Rebuke me He did, teach me He did also.
For me to learn & change & be a better man.

I thank U Jesus 4 wat U have done & wat U r doing,
I thank U Holy Spirit 4 being so real 2 me,
I thank U Father 4 Ur love & compassion,
Without any of U, my life is so meaningless.

Thank U my Lord my God, my Saviour, my Friend.

Annointing Flows Top Down..

HaHa.. After e contacthead fellowship on sunday, decided 2 meet e easterners 2 play basketball on mon. Thought e response was enthu, but in e end, we had 7 ppl: Shirley, Julia, Kenneth, Kangwei, Micheal, Jason, myself. Had lots of fun. It's good tat we can have fun outside ministry timing too, allows us 2 bond.

Celebrated Joy's birthday b4 playing ball. Actually we brought a cake 2 her void deck & got her down. Oops.. HaHa.. She was preparing 4 her test & 2 presentations e next day, so she was a little dazed when we surprised her. *Go girl! u rox!* Went Commonwealth 2 celebrate Jen's birthday after bball (how can we celebrate 1 but not e other.. haha.. :p ). Instead of surprising her, we got a surprise ourselves! lol When we reached her flat, she was already outside looking down @ us. lol Maybe it's e twin telepathy thing. lol

Went out w Bro Boon & e older SF leaders today. Informal celebration of percussionists Samuel & Adel's birthday. Found out Justinn is expecting her 3rd child! WoW!!! Tat's fast! We went PS Thai Express 4 dinner @ 9pm & @ 11pm we were around Zouk area having supper!!! No wonder many of our tummies r coming out! lol I'd better learn 2 discipline & control :p