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Monday, November 06, 2006

Breaking Through

Really wanna thank God 4 His goodness. He's been showing me a lot of things lately & dealing w my weaknesses.

Yesterday after dumping our pledges into e offering bucket, me & Fabian juz looked @ it each other, saying,"wat have I done?!" We both pledged an amount whereby if God doesn't come through 4 us, we'll starve 4 this period. But as I closed my eyes & worshipped, I saw God's goodness 2 me, how he had & how he would provide 4 my meals in school & @ e office. He even showed me a possiblilty of giving more in January! Talk about WOW! I needa have faith 4 now till dec, & even more faith come Jan! But i believe, if God shows e way, He'd also make sure there's more than enough 2 make e journey.

Was really disappointed w myself. Was entrusted 2 do certain tasks 4 Dr Boon when they went oversees, but I misplaced e trust he had in me & made 2 very silly mistakes which shouldn't have been. Needa learn 2 be more alert 2 details. Haiz.. "Learn & move on, grow & become better."

Finally had a breakthrough in bringing frens, & they've been coming a month now! HURRAH!!!

Was actually quite upset over a lot of things in CG. Mainly bcoz there were certain things which were never explained. I as I digged deeper into an issue w Jo, I realised 1 thing. Since young I get frustrated when i wanna learn something, but it cannot be taught thoughly, for example, algebra, nobody could explain 2 me how numbers & letters could be used together in Maths, 2 me it made no sense, & 4 a long time I struggled n hated subjects which could not be explained from beginning 2 end. Anywayz really appreciate Jo 4 taking e time 2 explain things n talk instead of telling me & insisting that things should be done this way & tat, these things & tat things can & cannot be said. Bcoz of e openness in communication i was able 2 avoid a major shutdown. HaHa.. So yah.. I learned something today about my present n past.

In summary, 2 confirm wat I felt God had been speaking 2 me, He's bringing me places, & taking out e trash in my life @ e same time.

I love God & I love His House,
Nothing's gonna change that,
No one can ever change that,
Coz His love is too real to me,
His promises & comfort never ceases.

He's always there by my side,
Though sometimes I fail Him,
He never ever fails me.

I love U my God 4 all U r to me,
I love U 4 U r my God.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Anybody w Windows XP Plzzzz Msg Me...

Com been down for 2 weeks now. Feel so isolated. Using e com in school now.

A lot has happened sinced i last blogged, but no comm 2 blog, forgot most of it now. HaHa.. 1 thing i remember though was e svc we had last week when pastor Kong announced a change of policy. I realise watever u pray about, God will answer, e question lies if we really listen 2 Him. During svc, felt God telling me "see.." & all i can do is stand in silence.

Prayer meeting was good. As we kneeled n entered into God's presence, I felt e tears roll down my cheeks uncontrollably. Many times we pray & worship, but we were not able 2 really enter into His presence, many times i felt so frustrated as e ppl struggle 2 enter in unsuccessfully, juz as we reach a peak, e atmospheresettles too quickly. But e prayer meeting on sunday was awesome as Pastor Kong led us in & lingered there. Finally felt e peace of God in a way I use 2 know but haven't felt in so long.

During this Building Fund period, there'd be many who will rise up. As many who rise up, there'd be a number who will fall. But as ppl go, God will do a sifting in His house & more will come in & e ppl will be strengthened not onli in number, but in e spirit. U might not be doing well now, but hang in, don't give up, continue 2 trust in God & learn, & God will promote u. Many times I get discouraged by myself, by ppl around me & circumstances, but God always encourages me by His word & young ppl around me. Don't give up, coz God never gives up on u.