Lonely! :(

Ever felt that u've got ppl & friends around u, yet u feel lonely? It's like u r laughing & look like u r enjoying urself, but deep down an emotional battle is being waged.

Nobody likes 2 be ignored, especially when it's some1 u care about. Relationship is being built up when u spend time w e person & communicate. But somehow all things seem 2 be going in e opposite direction. Every word said & every action taken seems 2 have a -ve effect. It feels like I'm taking a plunge down a bottomless pit. Am I that repulsive? Many times e devils put thoughts of failure & giving up into my mind, many times I resist, but there comes 2 a point where even e strongest will be shaken.

Been so affected by it that it has affected many other area of my life. Emotional battery down 2 zero. Spiritual life being drained away too. GOD WHERE R U!!! Cried 2 God a few times, even when I'm driving. Somehow He always tells me even when I'm rebellious where I've gone wrong & where I have 2 change. Y can't she be like that too, rather than expect me 2 gues & she gets pissed after that. Haiz.. Real emotional roller coaster.

But God U said in UR Word: "A bruised reed, He will not break, a smoking flax He will not quench, till He sends justice to victory. And in His name Gentiles will trust." Mtt12:20-21. Many times we remember e 1st part, & leave out e 2nd part. God wants us 2 suceed! So we will trust Him even more. Many times we go through e mountain top experience & we praise God, but there r times we have 2 go through e valleys, & that's when our faith will be put 2 e test & we be made strong. Many times ppl look @ valley experiences as e devil's attack when it is actually God bringing us through this journey to reach e promise land. & in e same process, He mould us & shape us. Thank u Holy Spirit for this fresh revelation.

GOD ABOVE IN U I TRUST
OVER THE MOUNTAINS & THROUGH THE VALLEYS
THROUGH BRIGHT SUNNY DAYS & STORMY NIGHTS
WHEN THE SEAS ARE CALM & WHEN THE WATERS ARE RAGING
WHEN I AM IN DESPAIR & DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO
I TURNED & LOOK & FOUND U THERE

IN GOOD TIMES & BAD YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE
WHEN I WAS HAPPY, WHEN I WAS SAD
YOU WERE THERE FOR ME & YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL

WHO IS THERE LIKE YOU IN HEAVEN OR ON EARTH
WHO KNOWS US INSIDE OUT & CAN RELATE TO HOW WE FEEL
WHO WENT TO THE CROSS TO SHOW US HOW HE CARES

SO IN GOD ALONE I TRUST
IN GOOD TIMES & IN BAD, FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE
COZ HE KNOWS WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH
& HE PROMISED TO SEE US THROUGH

GOD I LOVE U GOD I TRUST YOU
INTO YOUR HANDS I GIVE ALL TO YOU

-Darryl